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Hm. A place to catch the spills of my mind. It's been awhile since i've written anything. Honestly, i just sat here for about ten minutes with a superbly blank stare on my face, haha. Thank goodness for the window above me, the sun on my hands, and a carpenter bee hitting the glass three times (hate them).

Sigh. the baby is soundly sleeping, blissfully unaware of the equal rest i find in hers. for the life of me, i can't believe i'm a mother. she is changing me for the better. for those of you with kids, you know what i mean. each day, every little hum and giggle, every tumble and boo-boo, all the nights we weren't sure we were doing it the right way, we really were masters at love. just the idea of my daughter leaves me just a tad breathless. i hope that never ever leaves.

yesterday she came trotting into the kitchen and started dancing to the music. i lost it, praying these moments would never grow ordinary. i was watching her today play with a pebble- look to me for affirmation. sit on a dirty grate- look to me for affirmation. everything she discovers- she looks to me for approval and i can't help but think that every look i give back is telling her that she is significant and able. what power god has bestowed on me, to show this little being that she is a delight and forever will be worthy of real love.

our children are young in the flesh, but in truth...giant, holy, destinies dwell within them. this revelation has changed the world for me. now my days are filled with quiet awe and momentary thank-you gods. naomi song - i so long to see you grow in beauty of heart, meekness, and strength.

adieu